I think that today I reached my evening shift saturation point. I rarely see my girlfriend. I never see my best friend Dom. It's weighing on me.
As a guy I don't feel comfortable just calling him up and chatting. I'm not a good phone conversationalist. My phone is for emergencies and making it easy to get a hold of me. He'd probably call me a fag if I called him up out of the blue to talk.
I think what put me over the top is that I got a snail mail today indicating that I had not met the final qualification test for the government job I have been going though tests for since February. I'm not upset that I didn't get the job though. Apparently there were like nine hundred applicants and I made it through to the last thirty before being cut. Someone said today "Second place is the first loser". The letter didn't indicate if I was first, second or thirtieth loser though. I'm not upset that I didn't get the job itself, I'm upset that a door out of my current job has been closed. There is another opportunity that I am hopeful for but I have no idea how long before I hear from them if I do hear from them.
Anyways. Blah blah blah. I miss my girlfriend, my best friend and the semblance of a social life that I had while working day shifts. Someone please give me a nine to five job!!!
